As I wonder, considering fulfillment and its elusiveness, I see before me my past. The habits of my life, along with regrets and contentment’s. It is habit that determines where I keep my past, the habit of thought and behavior. The past is only at rest by honest appraisal of its importance. Be it a regret or contentment importance must be valued objectively if fulfillment is to be realized. When my past is before me, it only wants release, I am obliged to recognize its true importance, its release. Regret is always in the wrong place. A regret is never allowed to pass and it is a habit of thought that is regret. Habits of pride or self-importance are examples of how contentment is misplaced and what belongs behind me is instead an obstacle before me. The way I think and feel about things generate behavior that either fixes or releases the past. When the past is fixed it is as a barrier or an anchor but when it is a casual comfort or acceptance it is free to lend its definition and the future gains its complete promise.
It is in this way that the future is the past and I am able to remember the future. My past keeps me in line or sets me free, depending on where and how I keep it. When I choose fulfillment, in whole term, life’s fulfillment, enlightenment, I must first be at rest with my past. It is then that I can create or remember my future and it becomes my past. As long as I keep any part of my past before me it wants release and it is that release that sets me free to create a future independent of my past. Everything about life is habitual, all the mechanisms. It is usual to find a sync of habit that fits our culture and community and is accepted as normal. A habit that tethers and preserves status. I can also choose habit that is no less normal but is unusual. A habit that creates the future without replicating the past. The model for this habit is the future I create and I remember the future by creating it.