I have goals, I choose habits and behaviors to realize them. Goals produce results and the accompanying habits and behaviors mark the landscape with my path. As a mystic there is a singular overriding goal that drives me; Divinity or to live the divine life. I believe in providence and appointment, I think that life has purpose and it is tied to the rules of providence and appointment. I find that in my life mysticism is something I can not escape. It dominates me and everything in my life is produced by how I deal with it. I have tried to destroy it. I have nurtured it. I have tried to ignore it. Beyond a doubt my life is best when I have nurtured it.
In my life I have done things that forge a person contrary to my goal. I made choices that betrayed my purpose. There have been times when that was the intent and others when I did it in error. I made a poor choice. Providence and appointment are what guide me back, they are as the marks of origin, an indicator not of what I contain but of what I am. It is these marks that are the most prominent impression guiding my life. I am a mystic.
The rules of providence and appointment do not change. Like providence and appointment themselves they are constant. That I exist, that I am is providence. What I am and what exists is providence. How I am is a different matter and represents another constant, choice. Choice creates me, how I am. It creates a force that is spiritual and depending on my choice my spiritual community is determined. It is that community that enforces my choice. Good choice populates my life with spirits that are light, they tend to be translucent or transparent. Poor choice populates my life with spirits that are dark. These spirits can not exist in the light. They are that which is naught. In the light these can not pretend and misrepresent because they are seen to be what is naught. They are only able to influence and they use that to draw us in and keep us in the dark. If I try to leave the dark they present themselves as familiar attitudes, emotions, behaviors. Should I pick any of these up I am drawn back in. It is usual for these to remain unseen against the background of darkness and black. Good spirits work the same way and they represent everything of durable value.
How we are creates where we are. When we keep our self in the dark we create that which is naught and partake of all that has been created in that fiction. It is entirely dependent on our will, on our choice. The dark spirits and what they do only exist because we want them to, even when we are ignorant of that desire. Good spirits can go anywhere and rescue us from our error. These exist with or without our choice but our association and familiarity with them is determined by choice. Their transparency makes them difficult to see and if they are seen it is because they choose to present themselves, like a surprise. They populate our life when we make good choices and work to draw us toward them to make a place, even where it had been dark, where they can be known. That is appointment and it is constant.
Purpose. The purpose I am charged with is to keep my appointment. It is why I exist. What is your purpose?